Thanks for your article. Autism and suicidality form a double whammy! I have written a lot on suicidality, and have a book coming out on the subject called Touch by Suicide: A Personal and Psychological Perspective on the Longing for Death and Rebirth. In the book talk about how unfortunately, suicidality is pathologized in our society. If you add a mental health diagnosis, it's worse. I will say that there ARE therapists who don't run from it or pathologize it. I urge you to continue your search to find one! You might also check out my article in Medium on ADHD and Shame. If you find someone who understands shame, they will also understand suicidality. Best of luck!